Weekly Prayer Updates-5/1/2011

 

This note is slightly longer because I’m sharing a personal story. If you’d rather jump down to the bullet prayer requests, feel free to do so!

Every day we see new evidence that people are praying for us!

If you know me, you know that I’m very confident but my confidence borders on pride and arrogance many times. In the early morning of April 8th, I went into my home office to spent some time connecting with Jesus. I just got back from a church planter’s assessment and was tired. The tasks ahead seem daunting. Between pastoring the current church, planning for the new church, going to trainings, reading, being concerned about Chrysty’s health (MS) and how stress affects it… The “to do” list piled high.

That morning I got a very clear idea that I needed to just “pursue God”. This internal whisper couldn’t be set aside, it was very clear that God wants me to pursue him with everything I am and then He’ll take care of the rest. (Matt 6:33) So my Bible reading for that morning was Psalm 34:1-3. Those verses underscored the “pursuing God” concept as I meditated on them off and on that Friday.

I don’t always do this but that night I spent some additional time in prayer and reflection on the week and the future. While doing this, I got an overwhelming impression. Now, just to be clear, I’m certainly not the type that hears audible voices and plain outward expressions from God on a regular basis. I don’t even look for them on a regular basis.

It’s hard for me to explain this unless you’ve been practicing being in the presence of the Lord and hearing his voice but as I was praying and reflecting, in my spirit I distinctly heard the Lord say, “You’re afraid.”

I was slightly offended…and surprised. It seems to me that most people either struggle with anger or fear. I struggle with anger…but never fear. So I said out loud, “No way, I’m not afraid of anything.” (Yes really!) The impression of my being afraid was pressed again.

So, I asked the question… what then, am I afraid of?

With journal in hand I wrote the thoughts that came to mind. “You’re afraid of success. You’re afraid that if this church really takes off you’ll have to hand it over to someone else to take to the next level. You’re afraid you’ll have too many people in the beginning and your lack of administrative skills will cause it to crash. You’re afraid that you’ll reach hundreds but then bring it back down to the 150 people that you’ve been comfortable leading in the past.”

I was crushed…devastated. I wept. The truth of these words cut to my very heart and soul. In that moment, I wanted to walk away. How can I cast vision for something that I’m afraid of?

As I cried out to the Lord, I said… “Lord, I don’t know what the answer is to this, but you know all things. I can only take this new found fear and give it to you.” I just went to bed after that, broken and wondering what my next step was.

In the morning, when I got up and went to my office. I saw my journal notes from the night before. The idea of my fears was all I could think about. I said a quick prayer asking the Lord to give me something I needed for the day. I asked, what should I do about this new “fear” problem?

I opened my Bible to the same place where I ended the day before. I read the next verse: Psalm 34:4

Ps 34:4 “I sought the Lord and He answered me; He delivered me from all my fears.”

Thank you for your prayers. God’s work in our lives has been plain and we’re aware on a daily basis that some of you pray regularly for us.

Brief Updates:

  • Today we will have our third launch team meeting. 55 adults have committed to being part of our launch team.
  • Our Facebook presence is still growing! Please “like” us on Facebook. www.facebook.com/RaisingUpLeaders After you’ve “liked” it, please share it with your friends!
  • At the Exponential Conference this week I connected with church planters, coaches and resources.  Friday before I left I asked a launch team member to research a life-coaching process recommended by author Reggie McNeal.  Guess who was at the conference in person?  Thanks Reggie McNeal for giving us a bit of direction!

Prayer – please pray this week

  • We will get news this week from several potentially significant sources for funding.  Pray for God’s will with our funding, especially on Tuesday and Wednesday.
  • For energy as my family prepares to move to a new house 1.5 miles away. (This was needed and definitely Divinely sent).
  • That I stay tender to God’s Spirit and keep my arrogant, “I can do it”-heart out of the way.

Thanks for your friendship and prayers.  Please contact me with any feedback or questions!

Blessings,

Steven Earp

Pastor and Church Planter, Oklahoma City

405-820-0155 (cell)

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2 Responses to Weekly Prayer Updates-5/1/2011

  1. Donna Sims says:

    Steve; I will commit to pray with and for you on Mondays. Since Monday starts with M, I pray for Missions and Missionaries on Mondays, you will be included.

    I wrote myself a sermon once about the power of fear. It keeps us all from doing what we should be doing. I thought I was afraid of tornadoes until I lived two years in Oklahoma. I thought I was afraid of (speaking to) strangers, until I went with two missionaries last summer knocking on doors. I was afraid of my house going into foreclosure, but when that happened I was not publicly humiliated or tortured. I’m afraid of snakes and alligators, but they are never in my path. I could go on and on, but I think you get the idea. We create our own fears. We are our own worse enemy.

    I start out my day reading my Bible – Absolutely love reading it. I have a really good study Bible and can actually spend hours reading. I read my Psalms @ lunch time out loud and usually in a park. On Sunday afternoons I read Psalm 119. I swear it is my key to happiness, yea it’s long but I’m blessed with so much happiness when I do.

    I’m not writing this to toot my own horn. My problem (sin) is, I’m very lazy when it comes to prayer. It maybe because the prayers always seem a little one sided, I hear too much of my own voice. It helps if I have something specific to pray for. If I know we are all in His hands, and pray for His will to be done, what more is there to say.

    I’ve quit praying for a job. I have quit praying for my marriage. God will work all this out in his time. Since I’m not Catholic, I don’t call myself a nun, I call myself an all. I’ve committed to give Him my all! Some days I think my job is to read my Bible, Psalms, and pray.

    My best to you and Christy (My sister in-law has MS too). I will remember her too in my prayers. Stay committed to serving with all your heart, we got your back. Take care, Love – your sister in Christ – Donna Sims

  2. Cheryl says:

    What a beautiful response!

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